A Mothers Joy

As a mother my children
have brought me such Joy.

Through the years you wonder
whether you have done right by your children.

It is one thing when your decisions affect
only you.
It is another when it could affect another life.

We only hope and pray that our best is good enough.

I wish we could be able to always have an open
communication with our children.

We all tend to think we know best as young adults.

I remember my mother in law always saying
I don't want to tell you what to do but...

I always took the advice with a grain of salt.

After pondering on it a while I usually took it
in the spirit it was given.

The one piece of advice that gave me peace of mind
was when the Oma said, "Enjoy your children now
spend time with them, the house work
will always be there tomorrow."

I remember my childhood as turbulent to say the least.
I wanted my children to have peace.
I know I was immature as a young mother.
I had no tolerance for fighting and bickering.
I wanted them to have no reason to lie to me.
I may have been to lenient.
I wanted them to feel Loved and Secure.

All I can say is I have done my best.
I hope God will do the rest!

The children and I have had our up's and down's
but I view them more up's .

I pray that Jesus will be accepted in my Denette's life soon.
For only He can guide her and give
her the wisdom when it comes to her children.

I pray God's Hand on my family.
He has given this mother such Joy.

Joy to my Soul

Joy to my soul was one of my first paintings.
It was one of many times I saw the Lord
working through my hands.
He gave my the appropriate scripture to go with it.

"When I said, " My foot is slipping"
Your Love oh Lord, supported me.
When anxiety was great within me,
Your consolation, brought Joy to my Soul !"
Psalms 95:18,19,22--NIV

I love the way Jesus works through his people.

When painting or writing with the Lord
it brings peace and joy right into my soul.

A New Beginning

This morning as I sat and reflected I decided
it is time for a new beginning.

What a way to start the New Year,
than a new outlook on life.

I have been in a funk for so long.
I have decided to write down my reflections,
Then write a new perspective of them.

As a child I have done childish things,
as an adult I have put the childish things aside.

Now it is time that the two should meld into
one. For this is who I am.

There willl always be that child in me,
struggliing to be heard.
It is my impulsive not quite rational me.
It is that part that has no fear,
God is with me and will always protect me.
I would walk in the midst of them
they will see God shinning through,
all the Angels he has set forth around me.

The part everyone that makes
my family and friends tremble.
The part of me that makes them think
I am irrisponsible.
I have no fear for why should I fear.
God is with me who can be against me.

If their worst fears come to pass
I will be home at last.

I will walk the streets and help where I can.
I will talk to all as the Lord leads me.
He and only He can stiffile my steps.
If the Lord says turn left I shall.
If He tells my Spirit go right I shall.
Spirit to Spirit the Lord will lead me.
I will once again be on the move
My Lord and Me.

Time is getting short,
there are many that need to be reached.
A word, a touch, a smile, a listening ear.

I will be there Spirit to Spirit,
Me and my Lord.
Just doing the Fathers business.

How do you pick your friends?

Tonight I went to Walgreens and met up with a former co- worker.

I asked June if she wanted to meet a the diner.

Deneen and I went and met up with her and had a bite.

June is usually down in the mouth about most things.

I love her to death. She is in her early sixties and

has a rough life that never seems to get easier.

Most of the problems are wrong choices

that will haunt her the rest of her life.

But even with her rough edges

I see the beauty in her and would do anything for her.

She has raised her children on her own,

and have raised her grandchildren on her own.

This past week she lost her former husband to cancer.

they might not have been married and able to live together

but they still had a friendship and three children together.

After we left her on the way home Neen said

we have to find you some happy friends.

God has put these people in my path for a reason.

Maybe I am the only optimistic person in their lives.

I always enjoy the company of all my various friends.

I do have a couple of upbeat friends.

God made this way to uplift and be the listening ear

for many of my friends.

I thank God for each and every one of them.

A true friend is there through thick and thin.

Twas the night before Christmas

Well it is the night before Christmas
and Nick is still all over the house.
Searching all day on the computer
for where Santa's been about.
An hour ago he was in Peru,
10 mins ago he was in Fla.
Nick is still running a muck.
We told Nick if Santa flies by and
doesn't leave present he will have to deal with Bella's
Growling and howling all over the house.
Not a pretty site or sound.
I am going to grandmom's
Neen-Neen's going out.
Oh whoa is him if Santa's not about.
Finally he settling all nestling in bed.
Thank you God
Listen Quiet,
Quiet, Quiet.
Merry Christmas to all and Good night

Wake up Call

I realized today why this cloud has been looming over.
I have been fighting depression and not being able to sleep for a long time time.

I have always been somewhat of a none conformist.
Going to the beat of a different drum.

God made me this way rose color glasses and all.
He has given me this incredible compassion.
I take the saying "Turn the other cheek" to a new dimension.

In each one of us he puts in these unique little traits
and He has this master plan.

For me it is INTERSESSION.

I remember back to one night October 30 a friends son Danny was spending the night,
I couldn't sleep.
The Lord had me praying for hours, I did not know why for who but I just had to pray.
I remember being in tears and praying in God's prayer language.
The Lord was praying through me for what was in His Heart.

Danny had three daughters, they were staying with a friend Randie.

Randie was driving her children and Danny's to school and their was an accident.
No one was hurt.

Randie came over and Her and Danny Broke out the guitar In my kitchen was Praise and worship and I was cooking breakfast.

Danny is a pastor and Randie is a mighty woman of God.

My Daughter Deneen woke up and ended re-dedicating her life to Jesus.

I say to you Why was this mother interceding in the middle of the night?

What is the purpose of the dark cloud over my head!
The major depression and fog I have been suffering.
How long have I allowed to interfere with my purpose and God"s plan for my life.

I will tell you to long. It is our purpose in life to Praise & Commune with God.

We must hold each other up.

There goes I if not for the grace of God!

Be Blessed!